Grouse & Foul

I am severely wounded.
Sustaining a serious dent in self.
No idea how and when I can recover
From the horrors and terrors of the past.

No matter how hard I try,
I cannot but shake the nightmares off.
They kept on coming-
Haunting,taunting and mounting.

Was it a matter of fate
That I suffer as such?
Or am I condemned for my mistakes;
Those that I cannot remember having committed?

Admittance of wrong I did,
So was denial.
Either way,I know deep in my heart
Forever I will be hit hard.