Void

Absorbed into a vacuum of emptiness
I cannot help but feel the gravity of my helplessness
My situation portends to something disastrous



At the crossroads headed nowhere
Tasked with the burden to unravel the myth somewhere
I fall to the detractors and swear



Loaded with so much filth and hatred
Fed with so much anger and grime
But not a single respite,not one remorse



When the day stops raining,
The birds stop crowing
Nothing else will stir.



And thou shalt hath no other chance
To clean up this farce
Me,the ONE,will be awaiting this day of FUN.



-Quote of the day:
"No remedy betters the belief in resolution."

Shaken

Easy; in fact too easy, to shake it off
My condition is but one you scoff
When you were the one entreating me to sound off
Now that I did put forth,
You merely push me off.



Superficiality your speciality
Hypocrisy your art of perfection



Miserable life continuing in anguish,
Made all possible by your uncaring fetish.
Told me you bothered,
But nothing is furthered.



Out to you.
Out.
Out.
Wait.
I am not allowed.

True

Mum once told me, "Everything in life is to be tried."

Till now,the words still resonate in my mind,reminding me to always give people and things a chance.

Indeed, I heeded her advice as best as I could,but warped it at the same time for my personal reasons.

I tried to accept them,tried to make them like me,tried to care for them and love them,tried so hard in many trying ways.

But try hard as I may,I have to admit I have lost.Not because they are not worthy of my attention,but just that they do not befit my vindication of living on my own terms.

I need to be able to develop something for my ideal targets,need to feel,need to care,need to love and in turn be returned what I had forked out.

It is never easy.

Living in the recluse of what I project myself to be,in the shadows of what I had long foreseen as conclusive living premised on other's expectations,and to have to be elicited that twisted smile.

I never thought it would come to this.I didn't want it and never meant for it.I have been trying very hard to come to terms with living,with myself and with what I have gone through.

You may never understand how it feels like to be on this lone journey.But it's a choice.My path in life.

I hope you will accept it.I can only afford to say,"I'm sorry."

Coy Joy

Acquainting myself with more people indeed heightens my sense of fulfilment in the sphere of friendships.With that,my sense of solitude is momentarily discarded whilst that of mere joy and indulgence is expanded.Unfortunately,such feelings do not last.And it is all the more a misery that I have yet to resolve these conflicting emotions and thoughts within me.Am I just discontented with life?Perhaps.

Quotes of the day:

"Sparks mark the start of an adventure."

"Fear sets the intellect on fire."

Meaningless Curse

What to do?
I've no idea who I can turn to
A lone soul out at sea
Struggling with silent yelps of plea

Calling out to the vastness
Voice lost in its formation
Enveloped in this darkness
Abandoning all thoughts of salvation

Try hard as I may,
Nothing else is within my means.
I'm damned in a place
I fail to befriend.

Escapades

I have turned into a rider - both bus and MRT,espousing the values of being thrifty and environmentally-friendly at the same time.

As much as I hate to admit it,bus rides are plain boring. (The attached image is a testimony of that)

Monotonous and soporific.Sigh,what other alternatives do I have?

Quotes of the day,by yours truly:

"The resolve to live strong

Stems from knowing what's wrong
And trying to right the wrong".

"Love in its purest form comes from within,
And starts with self-love."

Non-luminous

Die without a sigh,
Make it feel high.
Short and crisp
Deep and sweet
Draw the last breath
With the fast fest.

Long has it been said that life gets better,
How so when it's all bread and butter?
Pin the nails swiftly through the neck
Swing it quick and toss it till it cracks.

Bleed the guts out and feed the creatures of the dark
Let it sink all into the ravenous holes of theirs
Fill them up and get them bloated
Till there's no way they can see the day.

Remains occupy insubstantial portions of people's minds
What matters is what worth is left behind.
Faint traces of you linger-something incomparable to
Their inhumane hunger.

Enshrouded

Welled up within me,well-obscured emotions
That speak of a past that is scarred.
Events unfolding in a painfully slow motion
Inciting the wrath in me to uncover.

Spiralling out of control,my warped notions
Of a world that has had enough of peace.
Inane people setting unprecedented quotients
Fuelling my desire to say 'cheese'.

Closeted bits of me shatter as I shudder
At the thought of it worsening matters.
Beyond what can define horror,
I face my oppressors and chuckle.

Silent Protest

Compelled to embark on a journey riddled with hurdles,
Follow the path in clueless fortification.
What is missing I know I can't get it without a bundle
Complete with what I can only be resigned to desire.

Bits and pieces of me are eroded,devoured by the
Insatiable source of evil.
It fancies it is no evil,for it carries on,pushing
Me to the ends of no avail.

Deep within the contours of my heart,
I smirk at the devil, and
Cry foul as if it's forever.
Because of you,I am not who I am.

Disenchanted

Diffidence plagues my soul
A wandering ghoul trapped in the cold
With a plethora of stories left untold.

Pus oozes out,a multitude of infections
Soaked in the sea of salty banter
Sinking beyond the boundaries of relief.

Jolts of electricity shot through me
As opportune reverie
To realise how constricted I've grown to be.

Set the goals and charge towards it-
Or that was what I was told.
But only fools will adhere to what is told.

Fear Not

Though the nights last long,
And the frights kept coming along,
Let not the fear invade you,
Nor the loneliness conquer you.

There is always a listening ear
Here the caring souls will hear
Quell your fears,
Control your tears.

Help is on your way,
As long as you do not keep yourself at bay
Take pride in your feat.
For you deserve a treat.

Remember,you are a true blue survivor.
For that,you are your own strength.
Help us to help you.
Pour your woes,and we will settle your foes.